another ask made me realize that jade grew up thinking that she was gonna die young because of her stuffed dreamself. And she embraced it. But she lived. It’s a mixture of guilt for living and sudden uncertainty that makes her want to kill the clone(and those feelings). In her conversation with alt!calliope she goes on about how much she wants to help her friends but everything regulates her to the side despite her incredible power. She thinks she’s the evil clone, the wicked witch if you will